SunshineAlways

Hello everyone!

It's been a while since I posted, and I just happened to realize how negative of a note I left off on about feeling down about my Ciel cosplay. Well, the good news is, this post is the complete opposite!

I had the great honor this past March of being able to perform as none other than Ciel himself in the Black Butler: Book of Circus panel with my cosplay group! This panel took place at Castlepoint Anime Convention in New Jersey, and it was a blast! Not only did I get to portray my favorite character with all of my awesome friends, but this also was a major confidence booster for me as a Ciel cosplayer. Our group received several compliments about how fun and enjoyable the show was, and I also received quite a few compliments about my performance as Ciel, which is exactly what I needed.

If you're interested in seeing the panel, here are the youtube links! It is in three parts (personally, I think part 3 is the most fun because we had a wildly awesome Q&A session!))

Part One:  

Part Two:

Part Three: 

So..I seriously need to stop with this. 

I feel like my Ciel cosplay is so terrible. Like..sometimes I truly feel embarassed wearing it at cons. I know that cosplay is all about having fun, and I love portraying him, but I feel like such a fool when I do. There are so many good Ciels out there, SO many. I want to be a successful cosplayer and portray my characters well, but I feel like my Ciel is just not up to par with my other cosplays.

I mean, people are shocked when I cosplay any Kuro character besides Lizzy. Of course, I love cosplaying Lizzy and she's my favorite character, but whenever I cosplay Ciel or Alois or someone else besides her, people are always shocked and say things like "You should probably stick to Lizzy."

Are my other Black Butler cosplays that bad? I mean, part of me wants to stop cosplaying Lizzy at cons for a while because I want to be known as more than just her. I want people to see me as the character, not as "that one Lizzy who cosplays Ciel". 

I just want to feel good about my Ciel. 

Hey guys! Despite all of my rants and needless deep examination of Kuro character journals, I've neglected to mention that I'll be attending New York Comic Con in less than a month! This con will be super exciting because not only will it be the largest con I've ever attended, but I will also be debuting 3 entirely new cosplays! Two of which I've been wanting to work on for months! And Heeeeeeeere they are! 

Friday:
Kneesocks Daemon from Panty and Stocking: I'm super excited to wear her because my beautiful best friend is going to be my Scanty! It will also be my first time using body paint for a cosplay, so that's something to look forward to as well!

Saturday:
Yang Xiao Long from RWBY: I've wanted to cosplay Yang for over a year now, so I finally got to work on her! I really want to do her school uniform version, but for the time being, I'll be wearing her regular getup. I'll be cosplaying with an awesome Male!Ruby as well, so look for us!

Sunday:
Robin Ciel: I FINALLY get to wear my beautiful ballgown, and nonetheless with one of my favorite Sebbys, . So if you see a blob of pink taking up space, it's me.

Please look for me and come up to say hi if you see me!

Hey guys, time for another Lizzy rant.

This time, it's about something I personally experienced that made me understand this complicated woman on a more emotional level. Although it's not nearly as shown as much as Ciel's, Lizzy has a very, very dark emotional center.

Why? How? She's always so happy, smiling and looking for cute things, right?

Of course. That's what she wants us to believe, but us manga readers know (and even anime watchers slightly) know that this cute personality is entirely a facade. This woman, like Ciel, had her previous life stolen from her. After Ciel changed, her life changed because someone who was so close to her and influenced her became an entirely different person.

Even if you don't support the SebaCiel ship (I happen to, despite being such a Lizzy lover because let's face it, its hot!), anyone knows that Ciel couldn't possible be influenced by Lizzy more than Sebastian. Because of their contract, he's bound to him entirely. Every ounce of his being belongs to Sebastian, why would he ever put Elizabeth first?

Despite her ditsy show, Lizzy is not an idiot. She's rather intelligent, and she knows this. She knows that "once something has been lost, it can never truly be regained."

Food for thought. 

The Ciel blues are a serious thing for all Ciel cosplayers. It sounds like a joke, but it's totally true and I think any Ciel cosplayer on here will agree with me, especially if they have a Sebastian cosplay partner.

We Ciels need our Sebby. When we are with them, we depend on them to hold us up, to stroke our cheeks, to show us off. We cling to them like a child to its mother. And that's why its so hard when they have to be separated from us.

Since I'm in a long distance relationship with my handsome Sebby, this post Otakon depression is hitting hard. And I'm positive I'm not alone.

How many Ciels out there love their sweet Sebbys? <3